Thursday, April 12, 2012
{ 1:21 PM }
Watched The Vow with BFF yesterday.
So i thought the supposedly surprise movie today was gona be The Vow. and when we met up on tuesday for dinner at Marina Square, I was trying to "dig" out hints from you in regards to the surprise movie. "The Vow" just came out from my mouth and your first reaction was "huh no uh"
Yes I was indeed disappointed cause I thought you knew how badly I wanted to watch that show, but wasn't fast enough to change the disappointed facial expression on me, that you saw and asked.
But anyway, that's not the main point. The main point is I jolly well know how bad last weekend was, with all the harsh battle of emotions running through the both of us. and yet, I'm there, shamelessly feeling disappointed just cause the surprise movie wasn't the movie that I wanted to watch it so bad.
I said shamelessly because I knew that movie its gona rub salt into the wounds, and would expect a whirlwind of emotions coming out from you.
So yes, after the movie. Totally expected the crazy emotions running in you. I know it all.
But I choose to keep mum about it. Thats when I started thinking of my past mistakes. all the stupid mistakes I've done. How blind I was and all the negative thoughts just went with the flow.
You asked, we talked and stuff happened. I don't know what got us there, and if getting there help you in any way. I don't know if what I tried to do is right or wrong at the point in time. I just wish you can get better.
Now I realised how much confusion and hurt I've been causing you all this while when I constantly cried over D. I felt it on saturday morning after Afrojack's set.
The uncertainty, confusion and hurt is so much, so much.
Luckily for successful surprise chocolate buffet and Homemade Bbq late dinner with Mag and PhelanP that night, helps put your negative emotions away for the while.
Monday came, and it felt like a breather of fresh air. I know I need to stay strong and that's when I decided to send you a text every morning to remind you that I'll always be here, standing at the same spot. If ever, a time if you're walking away and got lost, just walk back the same path and I'll still be at the end of the path.
So happen, I heard Superman by Taylor Swift and I thought I could quote you a part of the lyrics and send you, coupled with a text message.
Tuesday and wednesday today tomorrow dayafter. I guess this is the best I can do
Xos,
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