Wednesday, May 30, 2012
{ 6:04 AM }
Its official, on the 26th may 2012.
Not exactly something very extraordinary that I'd lost my blood over but its a decision I made when I touched my heart and tell myself that I made the final decision because I love you and I never see myself being with another person except you.
In every relationship, there will be giving and receiving. And it had to be on one's willingness to do whatever it takes. I'm not saying the decision is very much a huge sacrifice but because when I made the decision, its you I thought of. I do not want to see myself to live in regrets in years to come just because we are of different culture, race and religion. And because I love you, I'm willing to convert.
"If you love something, and you set it free, and it doesn't come back... you're a dumbass!"
Digress a little, I used to believe that if you love someone, you should set them free and if it is meant to be, they will be back in your arms.
But why must you set them free? Is it because they don't love you as much or was love between 2 parties never meant to be as such?
Okay I'm not making any sense here, am I?
Anyway after all this while, then I realised that sometimes we don't have
to look too far ahead for answers or look too hard for answers, because the answers we looking for, is actually right in front of us. (But if your current situation doesn't show you the answers or whatsoever, maybe one should pause for the moment and take 5, because you may actually miss out on something that could be your one and only big answer)
Going back, now that I thought of what happened on 26th, a smile will just naturally appear on my face because I know, the decision is worth the moments. Gathering up all the balls (courage) I have and said what have been on my mind in a week's span of time of serious thoughts, totally got me off guard when you got down on your knees and asked me to be your girlfriend. (which was dramatically cute) :3
Since a month plus back, when you first said the three words I Love You. and all the nitty gritty sweet little things you do for me all this while. I, Zoe Wong, is extremely glad and fortunate that the giver of this love and the receiving end of my love is/will be you.
I love you.
X,
"I don't have the prettiest faces for you to look at or the skinniest waist for you to hold, but I do promise I have the biggest heart to love you with."
Thursday, May 24, 2012
{ 2:05 AM }
Doesn't it upset you when people said they will listen but eventually they did not do it.
Probably cause he did not do the things I told him to (not for my welfare but for he, himself)
Or is it almost the time of my month is here. urgh
Just going to rant till I feel sleepy but it will take a page long so I will just stop here. Goodnight everyone
{ 1:29 AM }
"Why does it seem to be more and more challenging to find a perfect mate or maintain a happy and compatible relationship? Was love always this difficult? Haven't we heard stories of people being truly fulfilled and happy in love? Is love a myth? There are more people on the planet than ever before, and traveling the world has never been easier. Not only that; now we can use technologies like the Internet to connect with others. So what is the problem? Why does it seem to be more complicated than ever to meet the right person and live happily ever after?"
PAMELA OSLIE, Love Colors
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
{ 1:42 AM }
The thoughts running through my mind this couple of days can literally range from A-Z.
I really hope that the day, if ever, I will be devastedly heartbroken from a specific decision, will not befall on me. That will probably ever be the worst and impossible heartbreak I can recover from.
Dear Stars, I promise I'll be good. So please don't let that happen to me?
Xos,
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Monday, May 21, 2012
{ 7:35 PM }
A extremely wet Monday morning when I was on my way out. Both the weather and having teary eyes after reading what you sent me. There was I, in the train, with teary eyes reading it, yet this thought, somehow or rather, just slapped me awake. Thinking why aren't we together? officially together.
Its like the angel and devil thingy in your mind. One goes like why aren't you guys together. The other will be like why cannot you idiot. And back to another one, will be like /inserts song lyrics: So don't fall in love if there is too much to lose.
/Slaps.
Sometimes, I'd mentally shake myself.
"If there isn't a start to begin with, there won't be a ending to end with." Part of me agrees, but another part of me is one rebellious kid who goes like "Fuck it with the start and end, let's just be together, and to the hell with beginning and ending when present its all We should really care about." Yea like that.
And that it's not about expecting something in return. I don't care whatever status is. I just know that I love you and that I want to be with you as long as I can. That's all I want.
What about you? Cause I can't seem to able to decode your mixed signals (or probably cause I'm too dumb to decode) Maybe it's the latter
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{ 1:21 PM }
Been tossing and turning on the bed for so long that I just gave up trying to sleep so I'm here typing away...
Just too many thoughts going through my chain of thoughts right now.
How do you tell yourself to stay strong, and you know one day, being together with the one you love will probably bring disappointment to the love ones who brought faith to you, and that you got no other choice but to let him go.
Yet end of the day, you didn't want to see him "go" cause you realised no one else could probably bring the same smile across your face, give you the happiness he once gave. (You just know it won't be the same feeling if ever someone else's comes in your life at some point)
How?
"One day you will marry another guy and I'll marry another girl." Probably the most heartbreaking sentence I've heard this year. This close to have my eyes bawling out into tears.
What is Faith when it brings a impact heartbreak (to me)?
Ah, the more I stay awake, the more I'll over think so I'll just go back to bed and put a stop to all this thoughts.
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{ 1:20 PM }
"Have you ever wanted to ask a question but you didnt because you knew in your heart that you won't be able to handle the answer?"
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