Tuesday, August 21, 2012
{ 2:33 AM }
Its the month of festive celebration, Hari Raya after the month of Ramadan. But I haven't been doing much for the couple of days after CJ concert (which was a success! Will probably blog about it sometime soon). It was just me, home, bed, books, and tv meals. The Boy was out for his raya visiting so there was alot of me-time for myself.
I think sometimes too much me-time will make me ponder over stuffs that will create destruction to some issues. I don't know. It is just that I logged into any social media be it Facebook, Twitter or even Instagram, since Sunday, all I see was pictures of travelling, party rocking and Hari Raya visitings. It wasn't until today, earlier on, I couldn't explain why I was feeling this way.
I envied the ones who get to celebrate Hari Raya with their family members and the few who get to bring their other half along. and the other few whose other half is a Chinese.
It was at that moment I feel _. Maybe all I wanted, was to be a part of something that is special and meaningful to him and his family. So I text Boyfriend and we had this short disagreement for a while. After realising the differences between the chinese and muslim culture, and my shortsightedness of my knowledge for the culture, I apologised.
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